My first

I just saw my first ever LIVE PBA game ever. And it was awesome! Thanks to my friend, Lanie, for giving me free tickets. 

After watching Petron team lose, we headed over to Dillingers to cap off the work week. 
I saw people I haven't seen for quite some time and some of them, it was my first time to talk to them even though I've met them before. 

Lanie, Peachy and I ended the night at Whistlestop. 

Day four: He starts to text and then He falls asleep. Repeat. I think that action of his is on loop. And then he messaged me on Facebook, sending a link about quarter-life crisis. 

Just please stop. 

Close to relapsing

Day four: I couldn't help but think about you. I miss your random messages and how you still ask "how are you", your most hated question. 

I want to tell you that I do like you. Not just like, but like, like you. I don't know if you like me too. Like, like me too. I guess I'll never know. 

I need to flush you out of my system. I need to shift to another direction because I can't go on waiting for you. You might be waiting for someone, too. 

But I wish you'd tell me so that I won't look stupid, going along..

I have to fight.

It's starting

Shift,

Day three: it was a cold, cold day even though it was sunny. 

Good thing, my sister and I watched Percy Jackson and walked around. I bought myself a lovely pair of dangling earrings. I am thinking of starting my dangling earrings collection. We'll see 

So last June, Arvi's cousins from Germany came here for a short vacation. Arvi asked me if I could accompany her and her cousins in Manila. I happily obliges. From Divisoria, to Binondo, to Quiapo then to Glorietta. Two days later, we went to URBN. And boy, I was so fucked up. Good thing my good friend, Cay, was in the area. She picked me up and brought me home.

Shifting ver 2

Day two: I saw a break and took it. Now I feel disappointed. 

But yesterday, a friend of mine made my shifting bearable. Thank you, C! 

I'll update you bit by bit about what happened for the past two months.

My highschool kabarkada, Mads, finally gave birth to a healthy baby girl last 4th of July. Her name is Alexa Sabine and she's so precious. 

I cant wait to meet her!! 

Shifting

I am shifting. Moving to a new direction. 

Day one: It's a bit hard, but I know I can do it. I NEED A DRINK. 

Updates about my June and July are on the works.

I end this post with this. 

On new places and taking a ton of photos

I just realized that taking photos is not so important when you're in a new place/country. You are so busy taking photos of buildings, objects, telephone booths, train stations, bus stops, stores, etc., that you forget to immerse yourself in that certain moment. 

I was going through my England/Scotland photos a while ago.  Some of it instantly brought me back to that place but others were so vague to that point that I was almost into tears. I couldn't remember what happened during that day or that hour. As a sentimental person, I wanted to punch myself for letting this happen. 

It's just pointless to take a hundred or a thousand photos and forgetting where you are, who you with, the color of the sky, the weather, the time. Those things are really the important ones you should remember. 

Photographs are just mere aides. Never again 

Dear Vitzka

A lot has happened when you were 24. A mixture of bitterness, triumph, excitement, sadness, and disappointment have made up your 24th year on this earth. Nevertheless, it was probably your best year yet.

You've finally finished school! After many years of idling, procrastinating, whining, and fostering the aristocracy of the intellect, it rewarded you. Be proud! Your Lolo Neilo is.

You've gotten out of a relationship that brought out the good and bad in you. It could have been him whom you'll spend the rest of your with. Instead, you had the courage to let go of him in order to let all others in. I know you love him dearly and always will.

You've come to terms that you'll lose some friends but it just made you cherish and strengthen the ties you have with your awesome, open-minded, crazy and loving friends. They have put up with your mood swings, favors, "ka-artehan", and rants. And I know you're very much thankful for them.

You have the best, best mentors in the whole wide world! You are so lucky to be working with them.

No matter how dysfunctional your family is, you adore and love them with all your heart.

You are not a visual person.You like to feel, to touch, to stimulate some level of metaphysical connection. I know, you hold that quote from Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist so dearly. "They don't want to be married to you for a hundred years. They just want to hold your hands." Damn you Beatles!

Your first travel out of the country made a huge impact on you. Who would've thought that it was going to be in United Kingdom! It left a deep mark inside of you and even after leaving it, you were pining for it for months. The places you've visited and the people you've met made it harder for you to get over it. You will be back for sure. Just be patient. You'll see it again and experience warmth despite the cold.

You now actually know what to do with your life. Hold onto that and start making it happen. Now.

Volunteer, inspire, ask, obey, love, accept, listen. Listen again.

You have this mixed emotions about turning 25. Quarter life crisis, perhaps? But remember, 25 is just a number. You'll breeze through it just like 24. Give yourself a pat! And eat cake for breakfast. Happy Birthday Vitzka! 

Yours,
Vitzka