Kroooo kroooo krooooo

What to do?  What to do? 

I have to master each of them again. Touch them, feel them, give them my command. 

Priorities, Vitzka. Priorities. 

Tulog ko muna siguro ito.

Give me pain. Give me shit. Give me love? Anurao?

Exclusivity. Medyo nakakatakot. 

I need a long sleep. A dreamless sleep. 

Good night. 

Close to relapsing

Day four: I couldn't help but think about you. I miss your random messages and how you still ask "how are you", your most hated question. 

I want to tell you that I do like you. Not just like, but like, like you. I don't know if you like me too. Like, like me too. I guess I'll never know. 

I need to flush you out of my system. I need to shift to another direction because I can't go on waiting for you. You might be waiting for someone, too. 

But I wish you'd tell me so that I won't look stupid, going along..

I have to fight.

If only.

It has been a while since we last talked to each other. I remember the night when you didn't want to talk to anymore because I said to you that I am pretty sure I am not gonna be able to visit this year. It broke my heart.

There are so many things I want to tell you. And so many things I need to ask you especially the part about your driving test. Did you pass or not?

I must say, I need to say that I think I fell in love with you. But how can this be after hanging out with you for
four days? If only we had time.

I've been secretly crying about how it ended (I think?) between us. I really wish I could still talk to you, message you on viber. If only you could open up to me and not shut me out of your life. Nobody said it was easy. I just wish, oh how wish...

I am trying hard not to chase you. So haaaard. But there is really something that draws me even closer to you. I know. I should already stop having delusions of you and me. I need to move on with my life like what you're doing now. There's a big part of me that wished that we didn't meet. Our lives will be easier. But not meeting you at all would not be my world without you in it.

Slowly but surely, I will let you go. I have to or else I'd drive myself to the edge. It was really nice knowing you.I loved every single second we spent talking, laughing, teasing, holding hands, staring, pushing, drunk texting, and dreaming.

I miss you terribly C.

What I want to do right now.